SECTION FIFTEEN
Entry #0115: Working Out the Deal
07-20-2009
Bob was sweating, but he replied, “Listen. Two
other agents did that job.
We were just supposed to transport the bodies to a different location
far enough away, and then bury them – which we were going to do today.”
“So you’re accessories to murder.”
Bob continued, “But now things have changed. If you
insist on taking us in, and if we don’t do it this way, someone
else will come after you two. You know that.”
Mike swore and shook his head, as he lowered the
gun. “Damn-it-to-hell!
This whole thing really stinks, you know.”
“We know. It’s a rotten deal,” Bill agreed.
Mike prodded, “So where are these two stiffs?”
Glancing over at their van, Bob answered, "Wrapped
in plastic and duct tape on the floor of the van."
Mike said smugly, aiming the .44 Magnum at them
steadily. "Man, you two are in real hot water."
As much as I wanted to, I didn’t interfere. Mike
was right to arrest them and turn them in – but at what cost if other
agents came later to kill us? Especially the ones who killed the
journalists. They were still at large.
Bill replied, “If we don’t do it this way, like
we’ve said, other agents will chase you down and kill you both. Most
likely the same ones that offed the journalists.”
I just nodded, justified in my assumption.
“He’s right,” Bob nodded. “The plan will work if we
do it right. We’re experts at this kind of trickery. If our superiors
think you’re dead, you’ll be off the hook. After that, once we report in
and convince them of the scenario, we’ll wait a week or so, then we’ll
fake our own deaths so that we won’t have to defect – make it looked
like someone murdered us. Because if we just up and cut out, our own
people will come after us. We would be on the run, but eventually
they’ll catch us and execute us.”
Bill added, “So our only choice is to fake our
deaths and disappear completely. Since we've thought about defecting
anyway, we've speculated about such scenarios before."
Mike’s eyebrows raised as he queried, “Let me
guess, you’ve got two extra corpses lying around somewhere?”
Bob replied, “We have ways of locating other bodies
to pick up. It’s part of our job description.”
Mike grumbled, “I don’t even want to know.” He
lowered his gun, and I knew he was feeling indecisive now. “This whole
thing is insane.”
Seeing a problem, I asked, “But we can’t live our
normal lives if we’re listed as dead.
Seeing my name in the obituaries isn’t exciting.”
Bill replied with a smile, “No problem. For the
public record, it’ll show as two John Does, unidentified, burned beyond
recognition, but we’ll confide to our superiors that it was you two,
since you were on our hit list. That's all that matters to them.”
I gulped. “I see.” Then I realized something. "But
the other problem is, as a journalist and author, too many people know
me as R. R. Stark. I'd have to change my pseudonym, or worst become
somebody else and start from scratch."
Bob shrugged and said, "Sorry, not our problem."
Mike huffed, "I don't like any of this.
It stinks."
Bill assured, “It's the only way it will work, as
far as I can see. Unless you
can think of a better idea."
Mike said, and returned his gun to the back of his
pants." No, I can't."
"Neither can I," I agreed. As much as it sounded
like a workable plan, I was still suspicious and paranoid, considering
the possibility their plan was just a clever ploy, which would only
benefit them and not us in the long run.
Entry #0116: Getting the Plan Underway
07-23-2009
Mike was standing there shaking his head. I just
stood there, hands on my hips.
Shaking my head, I said, "I don't know, I'm still
leery about all this."
"I agree." Then Mike said to them, “For all I know,
you two are duping us – and this is just your clever plan to avoid being
arrested, then Stark and I will still be hunted down. Probably by your
other two goons."
Bob said, “Look, that won't happen. We owe you
guys. You saved our lives. And since we were planning to defect anyway,
and it needs to appear you were executed by us, it all works out.”
I replied, “It all stinks royally, Mike, but it
seems to be the only way out.”
“Fine,” Mike said grumpily. Then he snapped at
them, “But if something changes, and it’s obvious you’ve tricked us, I
will track you two down and shoot you both!”
Bill replied, “Understood. But I assure you, we
aren’t tricking you.”
Bob added, “This plan benefits both partied here.
Believe me.”
Mike reluctantly grumbled, “Okay. Get up then,
boys.”
Bill and Bob got up, and tried to dust themselves
off, but the sand was pretty thick on their clothes.
Mike said to them, "You’ll have to use my truck,
obviously. Stick those two stiffs in it for
the set up. Then you two take off in your van so
you can report back to your H.Q. Tell them we’re dead.”
I smirked, "Uh, let’s dig them out first.”
Mike chuckled, “Duh. That's a given."
While Bill and Bob went over to uncover the sand
around their van, Mike went over to his truck, where the sand nearly
filling the whole pickup bed. So with his hands, Mike pushed sand out of
the bed, griping that his shovel was buried under a ton of sand, and by
the time he dug down far enough and reached it, it was almost pointless
to use it. But he did
anyway, and standing in the bed he began scooping the rest of the sand
out onto the ground. With my
hands I was pushing away sand away from the sides and around the tires.
Bill and Bob first opened the rear doors of the
van, and sand poured out profusely, but shortly tapered off. As I
watched, they climbed into the back, and with their hands they dug for
their two shovels, but they also uncovered the buried bodies wrapped in
plastic and duct tape. Mike
had glanced over and witnessed this too, swearing under his breath. Then
with their shovels they proceeded to dig the sand around the van, and
especially the tires. They shoveled sand out of the large backend last.
Eventually both vehicles had been completely dug
out. Just to be sure, Bob started up the van, and Mike did the same with
his pickup, and fortunately both vehicles’ engines revved smoothly. No
sand got into them thankfully.
Then they shut them off.
Bob instructed, “I suggest you two start walking
back to town and forget about all this.”
Bill pulled a heavy-duty hand-held weapon from the
back of the van, obviously a grenade launcher, loaded. For a second
there, I knew he could just blast us both if he wanted to, killing us
instantly, that is, if their plan was a trick to catch us off guard. But
he didn’t.
I asked the two agents, "Are you actually sure this
is gonna work?"
Mike interjected sarcastically, “Yeah, it will,
because I've decided to fail to arrest them."
Bob or Bill didn’t respond to that.
I suggested, "Sure, but other things could go
wrong. Their superiors might be too smart and hard to fool."
Bob smiled and said, "Just don't worry about it.
It's all under control. We’ve talked this whole thing out in many
different possible scenarios, narrowing it down to what we’re doing
now."
“Yeah,” Bill added. “Once you two entered the
picture, things just got easier, that’s all.
Made it work out better than we had planned.”
“That’s reassuring,” I said.
Mike grumbled, “Yeah,
real reassuring. I could’ve turned them in if things worked
differently.”
Holding the grenade launcher, tilted down, Bill
said, “You two had better scoot. We’ve got to do this – and make it look
good.”
“Alright. Adios,” I waved half-heartedly.
Mike just looked away.
“Good luck,” Bob said.
So Mike and I took off on foot, down the
sand-strewn Highway 18, back toward Mulvern. I didn’t relish the nearly
ten-mile hike back, in this blistering heat. We were already sweating,
thirsty, and parched, but we gave the rest of the water we had to Bob
and Bill.
I stopped and looked back, seeing those two agents
drag the two bodies out of the van, unwrapping them, and placing them in
Mike's Ford truck.
Watching too, Mike griped, “I don’t like this at
all. Damn thing stinks.”
We turned and walked on down the dusty highway.
I tried to assure him, “Hey, if it was a trick,
Bill could’ve blasted us with that grenade-launcher. But he didn’t.”
Mike grumbled, “That’s not what I mean. I let them
get away. And my superiors will reprimand me for it.”
“Oh.”
Mike swore some more.
Entry #0117: The Long Walk Back to Town
07-26-2009
We walked on down the sand-covered highway, further
away from Dead Man’s Point, where two dead bodies were being used for a
convoluted plot to fake our deaths. Dead Man’s Point indeed!
I asked Mike, “So, is it over?”
He shrugged and said, “I don’t know. If you’re
lucky, you’re in the clear. But I’ll become invisible, like usual, and
be reassigned for some new mission. There’s still the cold war between
the two secret factions that nobody knows about, which will never be
recorded in history.”
I remarked, "And we're smack dab in the middle of
it."
"Not really.
But it just seems that way from your standpoint.
This has been a pretty minor incident compared to the full scope
of things in other parts of the world."
"Isn't it always that way?" I said rhetorically.
Mike nodded. "And like I said, I’ll get scolded for
letting those two goons go. Although other Foundation agents were on the
ready to apprehend them as a Plan B, if I called them in, the fact is I
failed to follow through.”
"Sorry about that.
But like Bob and Bill
said, we’ll be pursued and killed by other agents if they didn't do it
this way."
"It's the old lesser-of-two-evils scenario. And I'm
sure the agents who killed the two journalists would be the next in line
to snuff us out."
"My fear exactly."
"But letting Bob and Bill go will make me look
bad."
"Just tell your boss the truth, I mean concocting
this crazy plan."
"I’ll have to regardless.
But they’ll send other agents to find those two scumbags
eventually.”
“Unless they slip away and disappear – fake their
own deaths like they plan.”
“Good luck to them,” Mike chuckled.
“But I can't help but think maybe those two sneaks had a
secondary plan. Maybe they
fabricated the whole scheme in advance, in case we caught them."
"What are you talking about?" I asked.
"They didn't want to be apprehended by me or any
other of my agents. They wanted to get away. So they did.
Quite cleverly. So we just got suckered. So it's hard to tell if
they actually plan to defect."
"I see your point. But do you think they’ll uphold
their part of the deal?
Follow through and fake our deaths?"
"I can only hope they will. But there’s no
guarantee."
Then we heard an explosion, we stopped and looked
back and observed Mike’s
truck in the distance on fire.
Obviously they used the grenade launcher. We saw Bob and Bill
climb into their black van and drive down Highway 18, into the west.
“It’s official. We’re dead now,” Mike laughed.
“Only to their superiors and their agency, right?”
I assumed.
“More or less. If they stick to the plan. But as
long as our real names don’t appear in the
local obituaries, we’ll be fine. Like they said,
it’ll be a case of two John Does to the public. Or at the very least
noted on page six of the Mulvern
Daily Press."
Then I asked, “It’s that simple a clean up?”
“If Bob and Bill do their part, and my people will
tidy things up for us on our end, tie up loose ends. So don’t worry
about it.”
"Too late. I'm worried because if my readership
thinks R. R. Stark is dead, that screws my writing career. I'm not
thrilled about starting all over again with a new pen-name."
"Life sucks -- and then you get killed. Or so it
will seem. I'd say it's better to come up with a new pen-name and still
live."
"Whatever." I shrugged and sighed heavily.
We trudged on down the sand covered highway,
Mulvern still several miles away.
Considering what he had said about “our real
names,” I ventured to ask, "Alright, I gotta ask you something. You're
here incognito too, just like me, not using your real name -- right?"
Mike just laughed, "Right. Then it'll be like we
were never here."
"That's right."
“So, Mike, can you tell me your real name?”
“Only if I kill you afterward,” he grinned.
“Right. I’d do the same for you too, pal.”
We laughed.
Entry #0118: Walking and Talking Down the Old
Highway
07-28-2009
Mike and I walked down the desolate highway, back
toward Mulvern, Joshua trees and greasewood and cholla cactus to either
side of us, and we were both thirsty, hot, and sweating, to which Mike
bitched and groaned about, being a city-slicker used to big buildings
and air conditioning. You could hear the whining high-pitched droning of
a cicada off in the distance, then it tapered off. Then another started
up. Very typical of high desert sounds.
Mike asked, “I keep hearing that weird noise --
ever since I arrived up here. What the hell is it?”
“Oh, it’s typical of high desert paranormal
activity.” I tried not to grin.
“What?!”
Then I laughed. “Just a noisy insect that lives
here in the desert. Cicadas.”
Mike sighed and shut up after that.
After a few minutes of silence, Mike said, "Good
thing John brought you onboard, for the time being. Basically, you were
a pretty good partner.”
I chuckled, "Just ‘basically’? What a let down."
“Yeah, basically. Not outstanding work at all.
Considering you gave in to the bad guys' evil plan.”
I shot back. “Hey, so did you.”
“Yeah, I know. I shouldn’t have caved.”
"But it probably saved our asses, since their plan
of faking our deaths appeals to me –
remotely, that is. Either that or be killed for
real later."
“If I was being my usual stubborn self, I’d call my
back-up agents and let them apprehend those two sly dogs.” He pulled his
cell phone from his pocket and messed with it, undecidedly.
“And where are they hiding?”
“Not sure. But they’d swoop down in a chopper and
nab them.”
“I see. Well, if you do call your back-up, at least
give those goons a head start.”
“We’ll see.” He put the cell phone back in his
pocket, for now.
“If they’re serious about defecting from an evil
group of New World Order reprobates, I don’t blame them. If that's
they're real intention.”
“Yeah, hard to say. Anyway, I've been thinking. I
hope John employs you permanently, and I can put in a good word. The
Foundation needs intelligent researchers and analysts. If not basic
field workers."
I was definitely curious about this mysterious
outfit, this Phoenix Foundation, yet cautious as well.
"I'd have to think about it.” I prefer to be a solitary free
agent, or freelance journalist, independent researcher, or whatever
other terms I can cough up.
"You see. I can recommend individuals as new
recruits, but it's up to my superiors to actually hire them, and John is
my immediate superior."
“And what if I don’t qualify?”
“Hard to tell. But one fact is, you know too much –
but not enough to get a higher classification. That’s earned. Loyalty is
key, and the ability to keep secrets.”
"Whatever.” Keeping secrets was obviously not my
strong point, and since I tend to reveal various secrets and other juicy
info “they” don’t want you to know about in my articles, I clearly don’t
qualify. But I said to him, “Well, I've gotten into enough danger and
intrigue already. Too much cloak-and-dagger for me. I'll take a rain
check for now. "
I looked back and observe the dark smoke from the
Ford pickup billowing into the air.
Pretty soon the sheriff and his deputies would be
driving out to the site to investigate.
But things like this out in the desert took a
while. Plus, death and murder and such mayhem are too specialized for
simplistic desert cops; they won’t know what to do with such a crazy
crime scene. But I feared they would call on the FBI. If that’s the
case, I hope those bodies can’t be identified, finding dental records
and all. If they ended up as John Does as Bill and Bob mentioned, that
was good for us – but bad for the innocent journalists from Barstow. I
shrugged it off for now.
Mike said, "I have to leave soon as possible. Gotta
go down below since my immediate mission is over.
Gotta turn in my report.”
I asked, “Exactly what
was your mission?"
"Keeping my eye on you, and keeping you out of
trouble."
“Fine job they gave you."
“Yeah.
Fortunately, my job didn’t require me to make an arrest, only to call in
other agents for that. But if conditions allowed as a last resort, I was
expected to do it myself. I should have, once I witnessed two corpses in
their van. I should’ve called it in at least, and called the back up
agents.” Mike fumbled with
the cell phone in his pocket.
I smirked, “Except those burning corpses are
technically us, getting us off
the enemy’s hit list.”
“So it would seem,” he sighed. Then he brought up
another concern of his. "It's also eating at me that the two other
agents that killed the journalists are still at large."
"What can you do about it?"
"Some of my fellow agents are still looking for
them; I hope they find them and apprehend them."
"I hope so too."
Entry #0119: The Other Enemy Agents
7-29-2009
After half an hour of sauntering under the hot sun,
something unexpected happened. I just happened to glance behind me, to
see how far we had gotten from Dead Man's Point, which was now out of
sight and behind the range of foothills to the north, and I saw a
vehicle coming down Highway 18 from the west.
Wiping my sweaty brow, I laughed, "Hey, maybe we
can catch a ride."
But Mike countered, "We'd better be cautious, just
in case."
We both stopped and turned, watching the vehicle
approach, and then slowing down. We realized it was a black sedan with
tinted windows. That didn't look good.
Mike shot, "Damn! Get off the road!"
Considering we had just passed the spanning dry
lakes and back into the desert flora across the land, we darted into the
thick of the greasewood bushes and cholla cactus. We ran to a stand of
Joshua trees and hunkered down behind them. But we peeked up to see what
was happening. The black sedan stopped and two typical dark-clad men got
out, holding machine guns.
”Holy crap!" I whispered.
Mike whispered back, "I'm pretty sure those are the
two goons that killed the journalists. They're the only other agents in
the area."
I half-whisper shouted, "Then they're gonna kill
us!"
Suddenly the enemy agents fired their machine guns
as they slowly walked into the desert shrubbery. The tops of bushes and
cactus were shaved off, not to mention several Joshua trees where
sheared in half, and some of the spiny tops fell on top of us. We ran
further into the desert and hid behind a large boulder the size of a
pickup truck. We heard bullets bouncing off the side of the big rock.
Thank God rocks were impenetrable.
I whispered, "So much for our faked deaths."
Mike replied, "Forget that, let's worry about our
real deaths."
"I'd rather worry about how to stay alive."
"Right on. Anyway, I doubt if these two even know
what Bob and Bill are up to."
"We can hope."
Mike decided to get a little bold, stood up, pulled
his .44 Magnum out, and shot back at them. Realizing that didn't help
any, he ducked back down swearing profusely. Might as well been a
pea-shooter against machine guns.
The cacophonous volley of bullets continued,
getting closer as the two goons drew nigh to us. Fearing inevitable
death, my life began to pass before my eyes, and I wondered why being a
kid playing Army soldier with a toy machine gun who loved war movies and
spy flicks didn't turn me into a hardened courageous gun-toting agent
like Mike, instead of a cowering freelance writer like I became. I
reckon I had gotten all that out of my system when I grew up. Besides, I
left my shotgun back in Mike's truck -- which had been blown to
smithereens.
We heard the sound of something up in the air. The
whirling blades of an approaching helicopter. We looked up and it was an
ominous black helicopter.
I didn't whisper but shouted, "Holy crap! We're
really screwed now!"
Entry #0120:
The Black Helicopter
7-30-2009
The loud whirling blades created a wind that
vigorously whipped through the shrubbery and Joshua trees and other
desert flora. I saw a jackrabbit hightail it out of there. It hovered
there in the air practically above our heads.
We observed a door in the helicopter opening, and somebody aimed
a machine gun down, but it was aimed at the two enemy agents, who now
fired upward at the helicopter. The man pulled back, but shortly
returned to the threshold of the doorway and fired down at the two, who
now began running back to the highway. One of them was clipped in the
legs as he fell. The other continued running. But when he turned to fire
back, the man in the black helicopter got him full in the chest. He
collapsed to the ground, blood oozing from his exposed white shirt. The
chopper landed on the highway near their sedan as the blades slowed
down, but didn't stop. Two other men in grey suits climbed out of the
chopper. They grabbed and tossed the dead man through the open
door and handcuffed the one still alive, who struggled of course.
They threw him in the doorway too.
Mike and I walked toward the helicopter, knowing we
were safe now. Mike waved at his fellow agents, and they waved back. But
they had no time to stick around and chitchat, so they climbed back into
the chopper and it took off into the sky once again, heading into the
east. We continued walking down the highway once again.
Mike explained, "That was the cleanup crew. So
those loose ends are tied up finally."
I frowned, "They could have at least given us a
ride."
Mike shook his head and said, "We're lucky those
goons didn't kill us."
"So are we still dead to the public?"
"Only if Bob and Bill got away with their plan,
considering the helicopter is heading in the opposite direction. But I'm
sure they'll be apprehended sooner or later, unless they succeed at
faking their own deaths first -- if they actually go through with it.
It's hard to tell how things are going to develop now."
"As long as we're still alive, I'm thankful for
that."
"That's the right attitude."
"But what about the missing journalists? The ones
that are posing as our burned up corpses?"
Mike signed heavily. "I may have to tell my people
about Bob and Bill's plan, so hopefully they'll go along with it for a
while so the Armageddon Initiative will still be fooled. Right now let's
not even worry about that. The worst is over."
"Alright."
Almost a half hour later, as we began to see a few
houses that resided outside of Mulvern itself, I asked, "How are you
gonna get back down to the city without your truck?"
"I'll walk or hitchhike to Victorville. Catch a bus
there, head back down below. But since we're both
‘dead’ now, we should completely disappear."
I chuckled, "I've been trying to disappear for the
last several months."
"Try harder," Mike laughed.
"I can give you a ride to Victorville, once we get
back to my cabin."
"I'd appreciate that." He clapped me on the
shoulder, smiling.
Entry #0121: Farewell to Mike the Secret Agent
07-31-2009
The sun was blazing in the late afternoon, and the
heat didn’t let up.
Once Mike and I got back to town, hot, dehydrated,
and sweaty, we went to the Kountry Kitchen and ordered two large iced
teas -- and two scrumptious, greasy hamburgers and fries. We devoured
them like ravenous animals and drank the iced tea too fast, and then
ordered refills.
After we ate, Mike said, “This damn desert sucks. I
don’t know how you fools can live hear.”
I chuckled, “I was raised hear since I was about
nine years-old. I reckon you get used to your environment.”
“Or brainwashed most likely,” he snickered.
“Only an intelligence agent like you would think of
it that way.”
“You got me pegged.”
After a few minutes, I went to the pay phone
outside the restaurant and called Calvin, who snivelingly sought
forgiveness and redemption from me, and I asked him for a ride in
return. So he gladly complied, met us at the restaurant, and drove us to
my cabin. He kept laying on his sob story about being harassed and
forced to do the goons’ dirty work, like trashing my cabin, and I told
him to forget about it, all’s forgiven, and finally he left.
From their, Mike and I got in my Chevy Blazer and
drove down to the Rocket Station, gassed up, and then we drove to
Victorville, which took half an hour by way of Highway 18. I dropped
Mike off at the Greyhound station.
He smiled, “Perhaps we’ll do business again some
day.”
I chuckled, “Not if it gets us killed.”
“Anyway, I’ll call you sometime soon, give you an
update, if I hear anything.”
“Alright. Stay out of trouble.”
“Can’t promise that!”
He got on the bus, and that was that.
Would I ever see him again? Would he actually call?
I don’t know, but I gotta move on, that’s for sure.
Entry #0122: Updating Leo and Monica
08-02-2009
A few days after that, I called Leo and informed
him what happened. He said that I should write a book about it. I told
him it’s all in my blog for now. The book may come later. Or just an
e-book, I’d see what developed. He was amused that it all culminated at
Dead Man’s Point, where he and I used to climb around when kids. No one
ever knew who died there or got killed in order for that place to be
christened with such an ominous moniker. And ironically no one actually
died there that strange day Mike and I and the two covert agents
concocted that crazy harebrained plan – only two deaths were faked. But
the Mulvern Daily Press is
having a field day with the incident – two unidentified individuals
burnt to death in an old pick up truck -- another eerie unsolved
mystery.
I also told him the second pair of agents who
executed two journalists were also dealt with, when killed and the other
arrested. So I told him that I assumed the Armageddon Initiative was
finished with their shenanigans in the Mojave desert, or so I hoped.
Then I called Monica, told her how the whole thing
transpired. She was relieved to hear it, but she warned that we couldn’t
trust those two agents, Bob and Bill. She said I should still be careful
just in case things backfired. She posed the idea that their little
scene of blowing up the pickup with corpses in it could have just been
for show, to make us think we were off the hook, faking our deaths and
all that. I shouldn’t be so naïve, she said. What if the Armageddon
Initiative still sent agents out to finish me and Mike off?
Maybe she was right. I’d have to stay alert for a
while – until some dark-suited goons snuck up and tried to kill me some
day when I least expected it!
Hello, paranoia! Nice to see you again!
Entry #0123: Looking for Closure in All the
Wrong Places
08-06-2009
I have no
idea when Mike will call, or even if he will at all. Sitting in
anticipation is not a good thing, especially when things are too quiet
now out here in the high desert.
That could be good or bad.
I want definite closure with this whole fiasco, not
just blind assumptions. I have no way to reach him, so I can only hope
he will definitely call me, let me know it’s all totally completely over
– or if there are any loose ends to tie up.
My nerves are still on edge; the anxiety I’ve been
living with for this past year has to be neutralized. I’ve gotten back
to doing relaxation and meditation like I used to do. That’s helping,
but I can’t help but wonder if what Monica said was based on her psychic
senses, that Bob and Bill’s plan may not be trusted, or just her own
fear. I tried to call her last night so we could talk about it, but only
got her voicemail. She was probably visiting friends or family, which
she had a lot of down below.
I’m still afraid to step outside, wondering if all
is clear, or if some dark-clad goons are gonna whack me. A sniper hiding
behind a Joshua tree somewhere outside my cabin could shoot a hole in my
head – I’d be dead in a second!
Entry #0124: Dying from Anticipation
08-09-2009
All I can say is, nothing is presently stirring in
the desert, no more dark-clad enemy agents snooping around that I can
see. I’m still waiting, or hoping Mike will call, tell me if anything
has happened that will give me a sense of closure so I can safely go
outside without thinking someone is snooping around to snuff me out.
Plus it still bothers me that if I try to use my R. R. Stark moniker for
my online writing, that would raise flapping red flags for Armageddon
Initiative, if they still kept their eyes peeled.
On the other hand, maybe I’m not that important, at
least, I hope that’s the case.
Maybe the crazy spiel in my articles is just rantings of a crazy
man and no one cares. Not even hit men, especially the ones that get
paid for executing anyone who might spill the beans about their secret
organization.
Maybe I’m just being totally paranoid and it’s
probably safe to go outside.
I tried to reach Monica again, but I still got her voicemail. She could
help me with her psychic sense, tell me if the coast is clear. So why
couldn’t I get through? I started worrying about her now.
I had to do something, anything, but sit down here
in the dark bowels of Area 57, a veritable symbolic form of my
subconscious mind that’s hiding secrets even from me! Since sometimes I
can’t be sure whether all that has been taking place is some crazy
delusion, or for real.
Alright, around noontime I climbed out of the bomb
shelter and into the cabin above. I looked out each of the draped
windows, peaking cautiously through, to see if anyone lurked outside. I
saw no one -- the whole two hours I kept watch at the windows. Bored, I
drank a glass of iced tea and munched on Oreo cookies.
I wanted to go outside, and I was feeling stupid
for not doing it. But I was being stupid due to my extreme paranoia. If
the Encyclopedia Britannica had a picture beside the word “Paranoia,”
it’d be my photo.
If Mike will just call. Damn! The anticipation is
killing me! So if he never calls, will it kill me? Hmmm…
Entry #0125: Stepping Outside
08-12-2009
This morning I decided to step outside. I couldn’t
live in fear and paranoia any longer. I opened the front door of the
cabin, and looked out. It was warm and sunny outside, and I heard
nothing but the droning of the cicadas. I stood on the porch for several
minutes, looking in the greasewood bushes and the Joshuas to see if I
could spot a sniper hidden somewhere. If someone was gonna shoot me, you
think they would have done it by now. I walked around the cabin,
considering that I should take one of those walks.
Then I saw a vehicle rumbling up over a hill in the
dirt road, a dark SUV! I ran inside and closed the door, but peaked
through the draped window. The vehicle climbed up the rocky road, past
my cabin, and continued on. I only saw a bearded man wearing a ball cap
driving the dark blue vehicle and no one else. He could be a vacationer
looking for the cabin he had rented -- or could it be one of those goons
looking for me? A goon in disguise?
I was tired of being paranoid, but just in case, I
decided I better stay inside a little longer, hoping to hear from Mike.
I tried Monica again – no answer. What the hell was wrong? Did “they”
kidnap her? I really started to worry now. I called Leo, but he couldn’t
help, but talking to my old friend was good. He said sometime he’d come
out and visit me, an old subject, so I said, “Come out soon!” He said I
was too paranoid and had to stop being obsessed about this whole crazy
fiasco that was most likely over now.
Maybe he was right. If Mike never called, I had to
stop this insanity and live my life -- but not in fear for it.
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